Today I was out picking a few radishes from our garden and I got to thinking. I've written about some of the things that I've done, had done to me, and some of the feelings that I am burdened with. I don't seem to be able to hide them very well, and really, I don't think that I should. My life is a tremendous work in progress that seems to go in every direction other than the one that I want it to but it's still a huge improvement over the way it was before I opened myself to Jesus. What I want to know is... Do other Christians go through all of these crazy emotions and struggles? All the Christian people I meet seem to have it all together, like they're invincible to the temptations of Satan and that they're just so strong, so sure of everything. Then when I tell them what I'm thinking or going through they just act like it's nothing or like I'm just some kind of weirdo or something and go on back to being perfect Christian people. I don't want to be judgmental but it seems like they just don't want to be bothered with me. Aside from my wife, who I love dearly and have deep respect for, I don't have any Christian friends that I'm really comfortable talking to. There are a few people at my church but our age difference is twenty years or better, and they don't come from the background I come from so it's almost like talking to someone in a foreign language, they can understand a little but the rest is lost in translation.
This walk that I'm on is sometimes rugged, sometimes lonely, and sometimes it just seems downright impassable.
Brian, this is a really good post! I want to tell you that we all, Christians and non, are facing issues. I think as Christians, the one thing we should do better is not pretend that we are all perfect or better than any one else. We are NOT! We all have our issues and struggles and they are not lessened by being Christian, we are simply equipped with the knowledge that there is a reason for them. I think what gets us in trouble in the media and the world is when we pretend we are all together and then something ugly gets out of our closets, and non Christians point fingers how we are not perfect and commit the same sins as they do. I always want to be upset at ourselves because in fact they are right! We must admit to our own shortcomings first and know that God loves us and forgives us, but we are all sinners and are all struggling in life. Also, some people are just not as comfortable sharing that with others for fear of judgment, but judge not lest ye be judged. We are all a work in progress, we are all struggling, we are just not all secure enough in our faith to admit that its ok to do so.
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