The life and trials of a growing Christian - Day Forty Two

What do you want me to write about Lord? I want to serve You with all of myself. I want to do what You will me to do. I want Lord, to be everything You have created me to be. Sometimes I feel as if I'm just flopping around like a fish out of water, and other times I feel like You're carrying me high above this world in Your arms. Tonight happens to be one of those nights that I feel like a fish out of water. I can't seem to feel Your presence all though I know You're here. Please guide me and help me to stay on Your paths. Help me not to be proud and stubborn, but to seek Your face and Your righteousness. Help me Father to understand Your purpose for me and to find and utilize the spiritual gifts in which You have blessed me with. Help me to have an understanding of those who I can't seem to understand, help me to share Your love with those who hate me. Help me to be the man that I so desperately want to be. You have blessed me with a wife and two children who love me, and I beg You to show me how to be the husband, father and leader of my family that You would have me to be. Help me to show the love of Christ to all who I come into contact with. Please show me how to serve You, and help me not to be afraid, help me not to become discouraged, but to remain diligent. In Jesus name, AMEN.