The life and trials of a growing Christian - Day One Hundred Fifty

Sometimes I wonder what the point of doing this is. Often times I'm so tired when it's time to write that I don't really want to do it, tonight's one of those nights. In fact, I just feel like quitting this all together but I won't. I can't, I have to keep going until I've done this for a full year. It's hard. I feel as if I'm failing our Lord and not growing at all but shrinking instead. I feel like I'm the biggest hypocrite that ever walked the face of the earth, I can't seem to be able to do what I want and need to do and I can't seem to stop doing what I don't want to do. I feel as if I'm a great big ole failure.