The life and trials of a growing Christian- Day Twenty Nine

What the heck is wrong with people? They constantly talk about how sad, depressed, and lonely they are. They do terrible things to themselves and call it liberating but they are still just sad, depressed, and lonely. Many people don't know it, but before I found Jesus and the Joy that knowing Him brings I was one of those people. I might not have gone to some of the drastic measures that some go to, but I was certainly on my way. I used to get pretty depressed some times, and then I would cut myself or burn myself with cigarets or heated metal objects. I swore that the pain from that made me feel better, or was soothing to my hurting heart, but that just wasn't so. The wounds would heal and the internal pain would just come right back, and it was time to do it again. I didn't know that it was because I needed the love of Jesus. You see; you can try things your own way, over and over again and still get the same result. But when you try Jesus, that's when things begin to change. That's when that hurt starts to turn to joy. That's when that deep seeded anger softens up and turns into love. I'm not saying that I don't ever get a little sad or down, but it's not like it was. When I say that love developed, I don't mean that my life has turned into a corny old Disney movie or something, but I have a love for myself now, which means that I have more of a love for others. No matter how much anyone else ever loved me, I couldn't love myself until I realized that Jesus loves me. If you are reading this and you feel like you are unlovable or you feel empty or angry and your tired of flailing around like a fish out of water I urge you to try Jesus! How? You might ask. Get your hands on a bible and start reading the book of John, after you've read it, do it again, SLOWER. By this time, you will have probably been moved to tears a few times. THAT'S GOOD! Get to a bible believing church, talk to someone you feel comfortable talking to, confess your need for Jesus and His grace, and get baptized! It's that easy. I know, it sounds almost too good to be true, but I promise you it's not!